~Still Rmb Forever Only Always~

2nd sem started le.. it was started on 19th Oct.. mornin, i was excited to go sch cos it was a brand new sem and new module.. then i learn new stuffs and it was complicated.. then okay la, time passed fast then i went to work.. then bad news came when i was doin closin.. i lost someone who had been nice, caring and showin concern to mii.. he din able to fight against e illness.. he lost e battle.. some more, e illness tat he gt was e one tat i had been attached to durin my attachment period.. same hos, same ward, same level, same block of hos.. it was a shockin news to mii.. i only knew tat he was ill but i dunno he was down wif tat.. once i knew these, i went to their hse but noone was at home.. i was panicked.. i wanna called them but dunno wat i wanna ask.. then at night, i gt e confirmed ans from them le.. i cried.. suddenly, those memories tat i had wif him flashed back.. those days tat i was at their home, he treated mii very well.. send mii home, send mii for dinner.. we even had holiday tgt bef.. e last holiday wif them, i was not well, even tot, he was not well too, yet he asked mii to tc.. he told mii even not hungry when stomach makes a little noise, i still hv to grab somethin light.. tat y today, when in sch, i dun feel like eatin, i still ate somethin.. i still rmb tat he wanna teach mii how to drive cos like tat when i wanna go sch and apply license, i dun hv to pay so much.. but nw, he haven even teach mii yet he was gone.. i din even see him for e last time.. e last i met him was i went Genting wif them..

i was very 遗憾.. i din gt to see him at e very last moment.. i was 遗憾 tat y i din get to know yet someone else knew it.. everythin was too late..

everythin was too sudden.. everythin was like fated.. y din my attachment come later.. if come later, at least, i can take care of him durin his last life journey.. from another point of view, if come later, will i hv e courage and do i hv e preparedness to do last office for him? will i cry even louder when i performin last office?

ytd, went to e funeral wif meinu thy all.. my clique used to go their hse and played durin e weekend.. he used to see us and he even joked wif us.. this news oso too sudden for my clique too.. i looked at him, i almost burst out and hugged aunty and cried tgt.. i saw aunty, i heartbroken.. thy really treated mi very well.. to mii, thy are my 2nd parent.. altho, i and them still hv some distance yet i still respect them and show my concern to them..

then last night, i dreamt of him and aunty.. he and aunty still rmb i like to eat potato wedges.. i woke up and cried again.. on my way to work, i dropped tears again in e train.. durin work, it happened again.. this news affected mii alot.. it makes mi think tat do i really able to be nurse? am i too emotional? i dunno..

i will alway rmb tat how gd u had been treatin mii since e day i knew yr family..
i will alway rmb how u and aunty treated mii.. from e moment, u and aunty treated mii very well, i alr took u two as my extended family member.. e one who treated mi well, e one tat i will hold respect to..

献给我最尊敬的长辈， 我会永远记得你。